Mum, I am still so destroyed, my life has changed immensely, and why because you are not in it pysically,please keep guiding me sweetheart as I still have strong urges to be with you, but I know you want me to take care of Ry, but he won't need me forever mum and we will be together my sweetheart , love and miss you with all my heart darling, sleep tight xxxxxxx